time to move on

it’s time to put away the fears
and the anxiety

whatever life is, this is it::: here. all of it, right up to now.

there are no escape clauses from disasters we make ourselves. no god, no super hero to save us.

it’s as it’s always been.

it always been up to us.

i just wanted to say that.

leave the commericals behind. turn off the sitcoms and daytime soaps.

it’s time to leave Ken and Barbie on the department store shelves.

and walk into another future.

part I

i should tell you
something has happened

waking up in a different world
one without any hand rails, guard rails,
and certainly no safety nets

it’s the gaping hole beneath me
fighting the promise on the other side
… soft so soft
it’s the pull of what’s in front of me

what do i do
but stretch out my hands
look straight ahead
and walk that fucking tightrope

and hope i reach the other side

what drives me there
but love
but saving my life

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    • pfiore8 on October 31, 2007 at 02:17
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    fear and dread

    and get back into our lives
    we can’t fight if we’re afraid

    it’s time to move on from BushCO and start defining what’s in front of us

    it’s time………………….

  1. Morpheus: I imagine that right now, you’re feeling a bit like Alice. Hmm? Tumbling down the rabbit hole?
    Neo: You could say that.
    Morpheus: I see it in your eyes. You have the look of a man who accepts what he sees because he is expecting to wake up. Ironically, that’s not far from the truth. Do you believe in fate, Neo?
    Neo: No.
    Morpheus: Why not?
    Neo: Because I don’t like the idea that I’m not in control of my life.
    Morpheus: I know *exactly* what you mean. Let me tell you why you’re here. You’re here because you know something. What you know you can’t explain, but you feel it. You’ve felt it your entire life, that there’s something wrong with the world. You don’t know what it is, but it’s there, like a splinter in your mind, driving you mad. It is this feeling that has brought you to me. Do you know what I’m talking about?
    Neo: The Matrix.
    Morpheus: Do you want to know what it is?
    Neo: Yes.
    Morpheus: The Matrix is everywhere. It is all around us. Even now, in this very room. You can see it when you look out your window or when you turn on your television. You can feel it when you go to work… when you go to church… when you pay your taxes. It is the world that has been pulled over your eyes to blind you from the truth.
    Neo: What truth?
    Morpheus: That you are a slave, Neo. Like everyone else you were born into bondage. Into a prison that you cannot taste or see or touch. A prison for your mind.

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    “This is your last chance. After this, there is no turning back. You take the blue pill — the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe.
    You take the red pill — you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes.”

    “I am only offering you the truth….Nothing more

  2. scare the bejeezuz out of some people.

  3. PF I stand with you

    There are no escape hatches. No one to turn to to save us.

    We and only we can be the saviors.

    So those of us ready to fight fearlessly – then let’s fight

    for freedom and liberty for all

    and all means ALL

    • pfiore8 on October 31, 2007 at 02:59
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    we’ve gotten all turned around and forgotten how to do things out of love

    at least, for those of us who are made that way

    i get very sentimental this time of year. i think of reading Clement Moore’s masterpiece to my nephews, when they were little. me on the bottom rung of the stairs, them just above. i’d bribe them there. the story kept them there.

    those moments are the only ones that seem to matter anymore.

    • Twank on October 31, 2007 at 03:15

    What does “there are no escape clauses from disasters we make ourselves. no god, no super hero to save us.”

    especially that “no super hero” thingy, supposed to mean?

    I’m a nerdy scientist, ala Hank Pym.

    Please educate me.  Please.

    • fatdave on October 31, 2007 at 03:29

    have just gone clicketty clacketty. I’m probably way off base but:

    Zeg eenvoudig ja, u ezel!

    It’ll be easy to have coffee.

  4. and reflect on my grandmothers.  I suppose it’s because I’m going to be one soon.  I have grandmother on the brain.  As an adult I now know that life was far from always perfect for my grandmothers but somehow no matter what happened they weren’t willing to allow their lives to unravel completely.  My God, one of my grandmothers lost her first child and all the grandchildren but one very suddenly.  She was devastated for awhile but then wasn’t anymore.  She did a few simple things everyday that were from her life before the accident and finally one day she was in her game again.  So we will all rise from the ashes reborn, transformed into something just a little smarter with a little more love to give in trying times and a little more calm when stresses are freely applied.  It’s so simple to type, so hard to do a lot of the time……but I suppose if I do that “few things” at a time that I saw one of my grandmothers do I’ll wake up one day and be living a real life again instead of wondering what the hell happened here 😉  Another thing I learned from my grandmothers is that when crazy people seem to have taken over FUCK THEM, THAT’S THEIR PROBLEM and do everything you need to live with dignity and sanity and eventually the crazies fall away because they are their own toxic paradigm.

  5. Even though our government has been taken over by complete scoundrels, our economy was already in their control, and most of the populace doesn’t realize what they’ve been losing for the past 7 years, on balance, doesn’t there have to be more good than bad in the world.? otherwise it would just self-destruct.

    I’m not saying to go to sleep, but I think for myself I’m feeling it necessary to focus on the good things more. I’m so tired of feeling like shit because our government sucks and all of that.

    Like today, the wonderful children from the neighborhood came to trick or treat, and there was a very special 4 year old who sang happy birthday to my mother on her 84th birthday this summer — just spontaneously. She always tells me about her “Joshua sitings” now.

    And today I was also feeling touched by the outpouring of support and wonderful sentiments from netroots people about the women’s shelter I started that blog for.

    I want to focus on the good and compassionate  right now, while keeping my eye out for the crap, I want to focus on the good in the world.

    The corporate media makes a lot of money off of reporting nothing but conflict, which I think makes the world seem a lot shittier than it really is.

    • pfiore8 on November 1, 2007 at 13:52
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    not good or bad, right or wrong

    it’s what we choose the world to be

    i think it can’t be more simple than that

    so let’s choose something else… i’m with you

  6. pf – you might tell me I am naughty – but for me I need closure on relationships that are over. And over I considered my relationship with the big Orange for that Chevron Ad. Plus it was bothering me that they still had my old content up as “Notimportant” even though I buried that name when I left the KOS. Specifically it bothered me because I have generated a lot of page views for DKOS which is used for calculating their advertising rates whioh is why every users content is kept up even if a user leaves. So I decided to get banned and I finally succeeded. It took a lot because there are a lot of pages under my old name. But I finally did it. Not in a public way. I would never stoop that low. But in an email to Markos I personally told him what I think of that Chevron ad the making of hundreds of thousands of dollars  off the blood of raped and killed Burmeses children. The truth was too much for him. And so I have truely moved on.

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