Ok, so it’s one week until Christmas. I think if I were to cave to my mood right now, give in and throw up like I want to, all that would come out would be sparkly ribbons with a snowflake motif (cause I DID eat quite a lot of snow last week).
Acting Christmassy is one of the many ways that I pretend everything is OK so that everyone who’s so worried about me will leave me alone. Before you start worrying about me…there ARE people who I trust and who know better than to try to ‘fix’ everything for me who I can turn to when I need….I just like to keep a lot of the other ‘supporting characters’ in my life at arm’s length. They’re well-meaning people who just don’t listen….how’s that for overly simplifying the entire matter??… 😉 ok…digress…NOW…
So, in order to maintain the illusion, I dutifully participate in all of the Christmas crap as before, though for the life of me I can’t remember an actual Christmas I’ve enjoyed. I love picking out gifts for people….I love the idea of Christmas….I just happen to have one of those families that it’s a miracle haven’t been featured in one of those dark comedy movies I love so much…or on Dr. Phil… 😉
So, in the spirit of giving, I offer you one of my all-time favorite songs. It was written by the members of Toad the Wet Sprocket, but there isn’t a YouTube video of their version. So, here’s a cover by some random dude who needs to stick to the melody a little more…..just sayin’… 😉
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try this one:
Fall down
i had been getting despondant w/dan fogelbergs death…
toad has changed my mood
and I have been that way for years stretching back to my teen years. I tried various things over the years to get myself “in the mood” and I pretty much decided I am destined to be a spectator in this one. Any holiday is a good one if it gets people and extra day or two off work. I foolishly chose a profession in which holidays don’t mean the barn closes up. On Christmas day I always feel a bit like a visitor from another planet even if I am participating in things.
but that’s because I’m jewish
i love christmas (& hallowe’en) but this year…eh-
& its so strange too, this yr we have a 2 1/2 yr old grandson home… prolly the first christmas he’ll remember…& i haven’t done shit (well, i got the cards done this AM & boxes out of the crawlspace last week(?))
the carpet is going down in the dining room right now! hopefully tonight i’ll get the village up so the boy can play with it (he’s very careful-amazingly so for such a wee lad)
y’all think happy thoughts for me so i’ll find some jing-jing-jingley somewhere to crank my ass up into gear…