thoughts on banning

yeah, here I am again. I wasn’t going to come back here anymore, but I still care too much.

I started writing this as a response to Nada Lemming. Then I realized it was turning into an essay.

I appreciate it that you have not banned me. More over the jump. It starts out one way and it is turning into another way. I’ll leave my text right stream of consciousness, as is. I think it’s more honest that way.

I can’t blog here any more, at least not at this time. It’s not negotiable, and I don’t want to talk about it. I feel sad about it. I’m not angry at anyone, just sad.

It’s my own personal decision, and I don’t want to talk about that either.

Nobody is forcing me to do this.

I wish everybody here all the best. My deciding not to blog here anymore has nothing to do with how I feel about any of you.

I can’t explain it any further. It’s not an option. But I’ll say again that nobody is forcing me to do this. It’s me that is telling me I have to do this.

I wrote here and elsewhere some days back and put some friendships on ice. I was sad to do that. I also reassured my friends that I would keep private any personal information I had on them (i.e., real names; physical addresses).

And I am and I will, always. Always. I care about you folks. This is hard.

The site administrators here know what the problem is. It’s about banning. It’s always about banning, for me.

Give me nine kinds of hell and insult my pussy; fine.

But don’t ban my friends off the top of your head. Not okay. Never okay.

Wasn’t okay with me when it happened to ek hornbeck on Daily Kos, and that had a lot of history, unlike the banning of Jay, which was quite impromptu.

I spent months hassling Daily Kos about ek hornbeck being banned. Ultimately, I gave it up and tried to mend fences.

Then ek hornbeck banned Jay. My old friend Jay. Who did not troll this site and accuse people of anything. Who just posted essays a few people didn’t like, and then was accused of “changing content?”

Jay, who tried to engage Inky99 in a reasonable dialogue about the law. The law that protects us from the military.

Fuck this shit. If you guys want to run a reasonable blog here, figure out what the fuck your rules really are. Don’t try to pass off bullshit about how you can do whatever you want, except when some admin decides you broke some immediately invented rule in the middle of the night and bans you forthwith.

That’s where I’m at with this, with this blog generally. Right now, I am thinking DocuDharma has failed the Turing Test, should blogs be subjected to such. I’d like to believe y’all can do better than that.

If you have issues with another user then they should be kept private. As this is a public blog which is not meant to air personnel grievances. If you cannot abide by that simple request then it is my suggestion that you take a break. No, ek did not write this.