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Nov 11 2010
WHY DO WE HONOR WARRIORS?
How do I not be
A veteran?
My identity defined by my life’s shame?
Unremittingly blamed
By myself
For being the sum of my experience
Ignorant of events
Until survival made knowledge irrelevant
I feel like a brittle leaf
Pinned on a twig by the wind
Rustling helplessly to be freed
Before I crumble in the breeze
It is a tender spot
Healed and cushioned by time
‘Til it becomes a mere plot
In some dope-induced war story
But it smarts at the touch
Of rough-skinned rhetoric
And it aches a warning
Of impending storms
I am a prophet by pain
I have the wisdom of the afflicted
I’ve posted this diary in several forms in several places over the years. It still seems relevant, particularly on Veterans Day…
Ok, let me get my reservations out up front. As can readily be seen from my blog-moniker, I am someone whose self-identification is based on a period in my life of two years ten months and twenty-two days duration that ended some forty years ago. So, yes, I have used the fact of being a Vietnam veteran to give myself some small amount of status in the blogoshpere; after all, “Leftvet” has a bit more potential cache than, say, “Leftout” or “Leftbank” or “Leftfield”. Perhaps what I like most is that what I have to say often presents a contrast to what most people expect to hear from veterans. Veterans in American society, after all, have traditionally played the role of cheerleaders for the next war. I, for one, have always refused to pick up the pompoms.
Nov 11 2009
A Poem for Veterans Day
STREET MEETING
He confronts me
Smiling shyly, head down
Embarrassed at the charade
Brother
I see by your jacket that you was in Nam
I was there too —
Shows me the scar to prove it —
How ’bout a quarter for a fellow vet
To get some wine?
He shuffles — niggaring —
Wincing at the expected blows of righteousness
I give him a dollar and say nothing
You see
We both have come
To the same
Conclusion
Apr 23 2009
Prediction: No Senior Official will Ever be Prosecuted for Torture
I like to think of myself as a realist. That doesn’t mean that I don’t subscribe to ideals, or that I don’t work hard in my own way to bring those ideals to fruition. In my youth, the way I worked was different, perhaps best described by lines from the song:
Once there was a silly old ram
Thought he could punch a hole in the dam
No one could make that ram scram
He kept buttin’ that dam‘Cause he had high hopes…
Somewhere along the way, however, I kinda realized that the tag line to the song wasn’t quite correct; that old million kilowatt dam never did go kerplop, and all I had for my efforts — both figuratively and literally — was a bloody head.
Apr 22 2009
Afghanistan from the Past
On this day of green awareness and torture diatribes (not meant pejoratively), I wanted to focus on a subject that has seemingly fallen off the blogospheric radar screen recently — the dangerous, futile attempt by the Obama administration to introduce the failed military tactic — but eminently successful PR strategy — of “the Surge” into Afghanistan. I will not try to document all the political, military, and foreign policy mistakes embedded in this decision; others are much more adept at such analysis than I. I’ll offer a more personal side. Perhaps it will provide insight, perhaps not.
Back in 1988, I was part of a delegation of Vietnam veterans who went to the Soviet Union to meet with Soviet Afghanistan veterans — the Afghantsi. I wrote an article about the experience that appeared in New York Times Magazine in 1989. How strange that in those days, the Afghantsi were seen as the Vietnam veterans of the Soviet Union; now, the sons and daughters of Vietnam veterans are about to become the new Afghantsi.
There was a part of my article that the Times chose not to publish. The following is that exerpt:
Apr 16 2009
In Honor of Poetry Month
Another one from the archives….
The Wisdom of the Afflicted
How do I not be
A veteran?
My identity defined by my life’s shame?
Unremittingly blamed
By myself
For being the sum of my experience
Ignorant of events
Until survival made knowledge irrelevant
I feel like a brittle leaf
Pinned on a twig by the wind
Rustling helplessly to be freed
Before I crumble in the breeze
It is a tender spot
Healed and cushioned by time
‘Til it becomes a mere plot
In some dope-induced war story
But it smarts at the touch
Of rough-skinned rhetoric
And it aches a warning
Of impending storms
I am a prophet by pain
I have the wisdom of the afflicted
Apr 15 2009
Solitary Dancing
I sometimes dance alone
Away from other’s eyes
To free my mind’s constraints
That limit what I try
An energetic Cossack
A peering, timid fawn
My repertoire is endless
So long’s the blinds are drawn
My inhibitions fade
Like safe chameleon’s hues
Returning with the knock
Of friends I fear to lose