A Twist of Fake

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Unlike many immigrants to the United States, I had no dreams to drive me. I came on a TN Visa, married an American, and ended up staying. Nothing interesting. Nothing dramatic.

But a curious metamorphosis has engaged me…. I am neither. My attachment to concepts of nationalism and national identity has dwindled. I was always highly suspicious about the darker implications of nationalism. When I go home to visit friends and family in southern Ontario, they often irk me with their knee jerk nationalism that is composed almost entirely of smug anti-Americanism. It has no substance, no real history or meaning just a sense of relief that they are not American. It isn’t even an anti-Americanism that can be salvaged and made into something more promising, no roots in international brotherhood peace and good will. Never mind that southern Ontario stretching from the Niagara region to the GTA is full of suburbs that are indistinguishable from American suburbs, never mind that the malls are full of chain stores from the United States, never mind that Canadians watch American TV and movies. Never mind that the United States is Canada’s largest trading partner and vice versa. Without Toronto, southern Ontario would be a suburb of the United States, although it now looks vastly different from the area I grew up in.

Canadians like to think they are better informed, more aware of the international community, more in tune with the world that is not American. The problem is when I test this thesis out by trying to discuss international events with family and friends they often wave me off by saying,”Well, the Americans fucked that up.” But they can’t discuss content. They are not better informed than Americans, maybe slightly but not enough to be making any lofty claims. I am often assaulted when I visit home to “explain” Americans as if I am an unpaid anthropologist coming to make annual reports. What they want me to tell they of course is that Americans are stupid and/or crazy. The minute I suggest many Americans aren’t supportive of the regime and that there are some pretty interesting blogs where one can engage and discuss, I get waved off. Canadians, or at least the ones I know, want to coddle their stereotypes. They want to be morally superior without any of the responsibility. They want to be the good guys without putting forth much effort. They don’t want to talk about their own national faults and weaknesses and when they do they sound curiously like Americans. Activist native groups challenging the government of Ontario are troublemakers suddenly. When I point out that Canadians elected Stephen Harper, they grumble and deflect.

I come home after a visit home and am torn between wishing it would be easier to movie back and realizing that I miss my friends and family but my identity is very mutable.

When I am here in the United States, I am constantly frustrated by Americans deep and rooted lack of curiosity about anybody other than themselves. They don’t particularly dislike Mexicans and Canadians, and don’t mind the whole continent sharing thing but the minute either country causes annoyance, perceived harm, or simply fails to absolutely and unconditionally support every single US policy designation they become problematic. Then I become Canadian. I become Canadian when I explain that Canada is not yet under American rule, that it has provinces and a parliament. In order to irritate people, I have agreed with the statement that “Canada is a communist/socialist country” and that people prefer it that way, even though that is a deliberate untruth. Irritating people who are not well informed can be an entertaining sport for a few moments, but it ultimately feels hollow.

Even though my family and friends claim I “sound more American”, in other words, I do not sound like them any longer, I don’t feel any more connected to the concept of America today than I did when I arrived. I keep waiting for it to happen, so I have a substitute for my waning Canadian identity. I realize I have become North American and perhaps it does me no harm not to identify strongly and uniquely with a country. In the same way we keep telling ourselves that identifying with a candidate is less useful than the ideas he or she represents, I have arrived at that point with nationalism. It no longer serves me. I am not even sure it serves those who claim to espouse it, except to convince them that they are a part of something greater, something to be justified even in the face of damming results, something to make themselves feel good and connected to stave off doubt and emptiness.

Canadians have a reflexive fear of being inhaled by the United States. Americans have a reflexive fear of losing their dominant status in the world. I am not sure I want to base my nationalism on fear, on what I am not, on smugness, on empty myths and truisms. So…. I won’t. I am not choosing. I am choosing in the sense that right now I am in the United States but beyond that I am not undecided or afraid to commit. I just can’t inhale the paradigm of nationalism itself, and the particular brands of nationalism I see practiced by Canadians and Americans.  

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2008 Year of the Mouse

Anytime the aspirations of Andrew Sullivan, George Will and Markos all congeal around the same Ivy league lawyer the rest of us have cause to pay attention.  Is a new day truly about to dawn in America?

Let’s hope not.

No candidate reminds me more of the fraternity president now posing for posterity at the end of his shame-filled tenure.  Put aside the unhappy circumstances that brought 43 to power and recall only that academic rigor, business acumen and personal courage played no part. Charm, we were told, 43 had in abundance. We all know now how that turned out.

America’s newest uniter is hardly the first man of faith America has sanctified when lost in the desert. With his impressive intellect and limitless charms, the transformational candidate is a vast improvement over 43, towers over the opposition field, and compares very favorably with  the professional actor Americans last turned to for a reliable happy ending.

The cyber-cypher and the ‘the great communicator’ share important attributes.  For all the talk  the jelly-bean President was, for most Americans, an empty page upon which they could inscribe their favorite scenes from Death Valley Days and Father Knows Best. Today a similar sense of despair grips the land and the search is on for a new narrative allowing Americans to star as themselves.  The transformational candidate has done the great communicator one better; using a razer-sharp mind and smoky, mellifluous voice to offer Americans the empty canvas while saying even less.

My own personal anti-epiphany occurred while watching the ‘sit-up and beg’ segment of the candidate’s visit to the Comedy Show months back. A regal flick of a digital finger had Jon Stewart licking the proffered hand. It was a frightening and edifying spectacle.

For the rest of the candidates, digital HDTV seems to have arrived unfairly early. Cameras veer in close to examine four-hundred dollar hair-cuts, smear-merchant spear-carriers and other assorted warts. Informed debate is rendered impossible by vapid talking heads and partisan hacks shrieking in concord.   Thinking caps happily tossed aside in the cacaphony,  the committed remove all cause and occasion to rethink their choices.

If all this puts you off, just remember the election is a mere 11 months away.

Markos is most definitely off the bus.

Influenced by me? I doubt it.

Pony Party, It’s a Philly thing….

The Mummer’s Parade is a New Year’s Day, Philadelphia tradition….and maybe it’s an acquired taste.  Somehow, all of that pageantry looks ‘normal’ if you’re from around here…  

Docudharma Times Wednesday Jan 2

This is an Open Thread: Please Relax

There’s More To Come

USA

Caucuses Bring Power Only to Some in Iowa

DES MOINES – Jason Huffman has lived in Iowa his whole life. Lately he has been watching presidential debates on the Internet, discussing what he sees with friends and relatives. But when fellow Iowans choose among presidential candidates on Thursday night, he will not be able to vote, because he is serving with the National Guard in western Afghanistan.

For Republicans, Contest’s Hallmark Is Immigration

By Jonathan Weisman

Wednesday, January 2, 2008; Page A01

The imagery of the mailings is designed to pack a wallop: a Mexican flag fluttering above the Stars and Stripes, the Statue of Liberty presiding over a “Welcome Illegal Aliens” doormat, a Social Security card emblazoned with the name “Juan Doe,” a U.S. passport proclaiming, “Only one candidate has a plan to “STAMP out illegal immigration.”

GOP base scatters to rival camps

DES MOINES — The long-standing coalition of social, economic and national security conservatives that elevated the Republican Party to political dominance has become so splintered by the presidential primary campaign that some party leaders fear a protracted nomination fight that could hobble the eventual nominee.

Former Massachusetts Gov. Mitt Romney aspires to build a conservative coalition in the mold of Ronald Reagan, but his past support of abortion rights gives many social conservatives pause. Mike Huckabee, a Southern Baptist minister, is a purist on social issues but has angered economic conservatives because he raised taxes while he was governor of Arkansas.

Asia

Pakistan election delayed until Feb. 18

ISLAMABAD, Pakistan – Pakistani elections will be delayed until Feb. 18 because of violence following the assassination of Benazir Bhutto, authorities said Wednesday, ignoring threatened street protests by opposition parties.

The polls – seen as a key step in Pakistan’s transition to democracy after years of military rule – had been scheduled for Jan. 8.

The opposition alleged authorities are postponing the polls to help the ruling party, which is allied to President Pervez Musharraf. Many believe Bhutto’s party will get a sympathy boost if the vote takes place on time. Bhutto had accused elements in the ruling party of plotting to kill her, a charge it vehemently denies.

Middle East

Israeli forces kill 6 militants in Gaza

GAZA CITY, Gaza Strip – Israeli forces killed six Palestinian militants in a pre-dawn clash Wednesday, pressing forward with their war against armed groups in the Gaza Strip days before President Bush arrives in the region to promote Israeli-Palestinian peace.

Bush has no plans to visit Gaza, which is controlled by the Islamic militant group Hamas. But persistent violence in the area could overshadow his visit, his first to the region as president.

The visit is part of Bush’s intense efforts to get Israel and the Palestinians to sign a peace agreement by the time he leaves office in January 2009.

Europe

Vatican, Muslims plan ‘historic’ meeting

VATICAN CITY – A meeting between Catholics and Muslims is planned in Rome this spring to start a dialogue between the faiths after relations were soured by Pope Benedict XVI’s 2006 comments about Islam and holy war, Vatican officials said.

Benedict proposed the encounter as his official response to an open letter addressed to him and other Christian leaders in October by 138 Muslim scholars from around the world. The letter urged Christians and Muslims to develop their common ground of belief in one God.

Latin America

Chavez-led alliance fails to get hostages

BOGOTA, Colombia – It was one of the boldest initiatives yet for Latin America’s emerging leftist alliance and it didn’t even get off the ground.

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Answering a call by Venezuelan President Hugo Chavez, political heavyweights from five governments attempted to break through a deadlock in the region’s most entrenched conflict: Colombia’s half-century guerrilla war.

But for all their devotion to Latin American unity, observers from Argentina, Bolivia, Brazil, Cuba and Ecuador couldn’t persuade the secretive Revolutionary Armed Forces of Colombia, or FARC, to abandon its deep mistrust of Colombia’s government and fulfill a weeks-old promise to free three hostages, including a 3-year-old boy.

Africa

Pressure mounts with 275 killed in Kenya

NAIROBI, Kenya – International pressure mounted Wednesday on Kenya’s leaders to bring an end to postelection violence that has shaken the country and killed more than 275 people, including dozens burned alive as they sought refuge in a church.

The killing of up to 50 ethnic Kikuyus Tuesday as they sheltered in a church in the Rift Valley city of Eldoret fueled fears that ethnic conflicts were deepening in what has been one of Africa’s most stable democracies.

The U.N. cited Kenyan police as saying 70,000 people had been displaced in five days of violence. Around 5,400 people also have fled to neighboring Uganda, said Musa Ecweru, that country’s disaster preparedness minister. Several hundred people also have fled to Tanzania, officials there said.

Muse in the Morning

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Muse in the Morning

The muses are ancient.  The inspirations for our stories were said to be born from them.  Muses of song and dance, or poetry and prose, of comedy and tragedy, of the inward and the outward.  In one version they are Calliope, Euterpe and Terpsichore, Erato and Clio, Thalia and Melpomene, Polyhymnia and Urania.

It has also been traditional to name a tenth muse.  Plato declared Sappho to be the tenth muse, the muse of women poets.  Others have been suggested throughout the centuries.  I don’t have a name for one, but I do think there should be a muse for the graphical arts.  And maybe there should be many more.

Please join us inside to celebrate our various muses…

An Opened Mind XVIII:

This is one of my more intricate graphics.  Clicking on the Art Link at the top opens it full-sized in a new window.

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Trinkets

The Giant Leap of Mankind

promised but not delivered

when Man stepped on the Moon

cannot be consummated

’til socially conscious thoughts

ideas of peace and good will

of justice and honesty

of fair play and courtesy

have more value than gemstones

and other shiny baubles

–Robyn Elaine Serven

–March 14, 2006

I know you have talent.  What sometimes is forgotten is that being practical is a talent.  I have a paucity for that sort of talent in many situations, though it turns out that I’m a pretty darn good cook.  đź™‚  

Let your talent bloom.  You can share it here.  Encourage others to let it bloom inside them as well.

Won’t you share your words or art, your sounds or visions, your thoughts scientific or philosophic, the comedy or tragedy of your days, the stories of doing and making?  And be excellent to one another!

Hope, Despair and the Climate Crisis

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This is about how we respond to the Climate Crisis and the relentless bad news about it-with despair, or with hope.  I’ll tip my hand and say it is really about how to fight off despair and find hope for the future.

It’s not easy to find hope.  For thanks to the climate crisis, the prospects for a livable future just keep getting worse.

I’ve written many times about the Climate Crisis over the past several years on various community blogs, and I notice several repeated reactions in comments.  Some offer their favorite solutions, or write about what they are doing personally to limit their carbon footprint.  But many responses are more emotional.

 There is fear, partly the product of quite natural denial-not denying the reality of global heating, but staying in denial about it as much as possible, while obsessing on much smaller issues.  There is anger, about how we allowed this to happen, etc. And there is despair: the world is coming to an end, and there’s really nothing we can do about it.

Despair, like anger, is another expression of fear.  But it is not entirely irrational.  How can it be, when we do face the real possibility of catastrophe?  

People have basically two reasons for despair: they believe that in its present state, humanity won’t meet this challenge.  There are too many political, economic and cultural barriers.  Humanity isn’t smart enough yet, mature enough, enlightened enough. And then there’s human nature: greed and fear will overcome.  

The second reason for despair is that resistance is futile: that the tipping points have all been passed, and there’s nothing humanity can do anyway to prevent catastrophe.  

It’s hard to argue with either of these reasons.  They may prove to be true.  But there are also counterarguments to each of them.

Humanity may not be smart enough to handle this, to even understand the problems.  There may not be enough humans who can hold back panic and despair itself, or control selfishness on an individual, family, community or national level.  

 But there is precedent for societies that acted with courage, and understood that in a crisis, we are all in this together. Even in the midst of confusion and apparent incompetence.  Read about London in the Blitz and you can see the elements of it: self-respect, fellow feeling, cultural identity and pride, good example and leadership.

In terms of smarts, beginning about four score and ten years ago, we began to develop one important conceptual tool: the ability to imagine the future: to use scientific facts and human insights to imagine future events and conditions (as the IPPC reports do), and how people will react to them (as this “Age of Consequences” report does.)  And if they are bad outcomes, how people can cope with them, or even better, how we might prevent them from ever happening.

Since then, we’ve gotten more sophisticated and more subtle in using this tool.  We’ve developed  working theories of ecology (how life works together) and complexity (how everything depends on everything else.)  It turns out we’ve got many of the tools to confront this crisis, to guide us to what we need to develop technologically, what we need to anticipate and do. And even how we might feel along the way.

It’s true that how or whether we use these tools will be the test of our civilization.  If we do it right, we go on and get better, building on the best of what we’ve done for the past ten thousand, and even hundred thousand years.  If we don’t, then we may very well fail as a civilization, and even as a species.

We may fail.  But we do have choices, collectively and individually.  People who talk about human nature-or who make relentless movies and video games about violence and revenge as the default human responses-tend to stress the negative.  Even the “survival of the fittest”/”selfish gene” evolutionists emphasize these impulses and strategies.

But not everyone-not even every evolutionist-believes violence and selfishness are good survival strategies, especially in social species, and now especially in one that controls the destiny of a lot of the life on the planet.  There are plenty of examples of unselfishness as survival strategies in animals and humans.  

Even early evolutionists, like Darwin’s close friend Thomas Henry Huxley knew that humanity had the capacity and the choice to transcend certain instincts -and he believed humanity would only survive if it acted (as he said) “ethically.”  

That we have these capacities and these choices has been known for much longer. There’s a story that appears in many versions, appearing most often these days as a Cherokee tale.  The briefest version might go like this:  

Grandfather told his grandchildren: ” Sometimes it is as though there is a terrible fight going on inside me, between two wolves. One wolf is full of anger, he fights for no reason, he is selfish, full of arrogance, resentment and despair. The other wolf lives in harmony and hope, he is giving and compassionate, and only fights when it is right to do so, and in the right way. It is hard to live with these two wolves inside me, for both of them try to dominate my spirit.”    

They thought about it for a minute, and then one child asked his grandfather, “Which wolf will win, Grandfather?”

Grandfather smiled and said quietly, “The one you feed.”

So it is reasonable to say that humanity can make such choices in time?  This brings up the question of how much time we have-and the second reason for despair: that time has already run out.

In a sense this is certainly true.  That is, the climate crisis is not a prediction-it is a reality.  Its consequences are being felt today, almost everywhere.  And the consequences are bound to be larger in the next ten, 20, 30 years than they are now.  We are reasonably sure of this because the greenhouse gases that will cause those consequences have already been spewed into the atmosphere.  There’s just a length of time between cause and effect, and the time for effect is still in our near future.

Though the emphasis has been on preventing even worse consequences farther in the future by stopping greenhouse gas pollution, the warnings about preparing for the near future have been stated, though not exactly shouted. Most recently it was half buried in the IPPC report.

The reason these warnings have been relatively quiet, and not heard clearly anyway, is thatwe’re used to thinking in either/or terms but this isn’t an either/or situation. It isn’t that we either have a Climate Crisis if we keep on spewing CO2 or if we stop spewing it, we don’t have a Climate Crisis.  

As I’ve been saying for months, we have to understand this crisis requires two sets of actions.  We have to prepare for inevitable effects in the near future-everything from seawalls and emergency response to public health and plans to deal with changes in food and water supplies and impacts on local economies, to animal and human migrations, to conflict resolution on a big scale.  This is what I’ve been calling the “fix it” aspect, and others are beginning to call “adaptation,” which I think is a very bad word choice (but that’s for another time.)  And we have to end greenhouse pollution, find alternative energy and other solutions in order to save the farther future, and ultimately, our civilization and as much of our planet’s life as we can.  That’s the “stop it” aspect. (Which those same tin-earred technocrats call “mitigation.”)

If we pick just one, we fail. And the particular danger for progressives/Democrats is to continue to ignore the “fix it” aspect until something really bad happens for which we are unprepared, and the political shit hits the fan.  And the despair becomes more than theoretical-because unless people know to expect some effects, any effects could make them believe that it’s all over, we’ve failed, we’re all doomed.

At the same time–literally at the same time–if we devote all our attention to “fixing it” (as some GOPers and corporations would gladly have us do)and none to “stopping it”, we condemn the far future and quite possibly the human race to massive suffering and eventual oblivion. We must do both.

Are we all doomed anyway?  Individually, of course, we all are, eventually.  We’re mortal.  But is this civilization doomed? Is the future of our grandchildren all but gone?  

It’s important to understand what we’re talking about when we talk about the future.  For despite what we project and imagine, and regardless of whether we regard the future with despair or not, there is one unassailable fact about it: the future hasn’t happened yet.

We can imagine future scenarios, but those scenarios are in the present.  The future is in that sense a fiction.  

Of course it is responsible to develop and use the best information, to prepare for dire possibilities and probabilities, and try to prevent them if possible.  To do so, we have to think of these future scenarios as real.  But really, they aren’t.  We cannot say for certain what will happen. Our actions may change the future, and they may not. But our responsibility to the future is what we do in the present.  We will not even know if what we are doing is futile or not.  And in a real sense, it doesn’t matter.

We live in the present, and what do we live with here? Despair.  And/or hope.  They aren’t in the future either.  Hope and despair are conditions of our present.

There are reasons to hope.  Progressives like Howard Zinn, Rebecca Solnit and Naomi Klein can give you inspiring examples from history and in the present. Environmental and spiritual activists talk about The Great Turning, and some New Agers still herald the Age of Aquarius.  

But in the end, past and present examples and future scenarios can only be encouraging or discouraging, guides and good examples, or warnings and cautionary tales.  They can’t tell you that hopefulness or despair turn out to be correct. For neither despair nor hope are conditions of the future.  They are conditions of the present. They motivate us or prevent us from acting.  They help give our lives meaning or sour our living moments.  They prompt us to give, or they urge us towards selfishness.

And in the final analysis neither is reasonable nor unreasonable.  They are choices, and commitments.

The single person who started us imagining the future in the ways we imagine it these days was H.G. Wells.  He did it with a little-known speech (“The Discovery of the Future”) and a best-selling book (Anticipations) that is now forgotten, but it started the scientific approach to the future.  And a few years earlier he’d done it with his famous novel, “The Time Machine,” which started a particular way that science fiction imagines the future.  

In that story, the time Traveller visits the future, where he finds the human race divided into two species, destroying each other.  He goes briefly into the farther future, and sees the planet fade to its end.  He returns to late 19th century London and tells his story.  No one believes him, but one friend, named Hillyer, listens to him.  Hillyer (who is actually the narrator of the novel) acknowledges that the Traveller “thought but cheerlessly of the Advancement of Mankind and saw in the growing pile of civilization only a foolish heaping that must inevitably fall back upon and destroy its makers in the end.”

A sobered Hillyer himself concludes:

“If that is so, it remains for us to live as though it were not so.”

I don’t think Hillyer meant that the dire possibilities of the future if humankind remains on its destructive course should just be ignored in daily life.  Certainly Wells did not feel that way. Wells told an interviewer that The Time Machine was about “the responsibility of men to mankind.  Unless humanity hangs together, unless all strive for the species as a whole, we shall end in disaster.”   Today he might also emphasize that humanity’s survival depends on the environment that sustains it.  

To live as though it were not so is to enact hope.  To work towards a future in which humanity flourishes, body and soul, can be a joy of the present.  

F. Scott Fitzgerald, who certainly read H.G. Wells in college, wrote a widely quoted statement:

“… the test of a first-rate intelligence is the ability to hold two opposed ideas in the mind at the same time, and still retain the ability to function.”  

We might read this today as a warning against either/or thinking.  But that’s only one part of Fitzgerald’s statement.  The part that is usually forgotten-and which sounds very much like Hillyer in The Time Machine, goes like this:

“One should, for example, be able to see that things are hopeless and yet be determined to make them otherwise.”

Iglesia ……………………………………… Episode 21

(Iglesia is a serialized novel, published on Tuesdays and Saturdays at midnight ET, you can read all of the episodes by clicking on the tag.)

Previous Episode

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Interlude

A long dark tunnel with bright light at the end….faint voices.

Well, no.

A corridor actually. Like a hospital. With a few fluorescent fixtures most of them broken. Colored lines, red, blue, yellow, green, brown…laid down in tape that was peeling at the edges. On worn and ugly linoleum. The ‘voices’…a scratchy speaker out of which was coming a womans voice with an English accent, saying “Please follow the yellow line.” When he looked down, there was a piece of used pink bubble gum on the yellow line.

It may just be a planetary urban legend, but it is said that the number of people alive right now, today…is equal too or greater than the number of ALL people who have lived on the planet in its entire history.

If you believe in reincarnation then, you have to believe that new souls are being made every day now. Lots and lots of n00bs coming on to the planet these days.  Personally, I blame these folks for most of the traffic jams…they haven’t had time to learn how to merge correctly. But most of them seem to be pleasant enough.  Except when you get in a long line at the airport or something. And speaking of lines, just imagine what the lines are like now at the soul processing and assignment office…the reincarnation equivalent of the airport. Imagine trying to keep all that data straight. Or if you like the Christian mythos…with 150,000 people dying everyday, poor St Peter must NEVER get out for a nice round of golf or be able to have a night out with the boys to tie one on.

And if you are a Baptist and believe that only the baptized get into heaven, you must then believe there is just an enormously huge frikkin line to get into hell. Not that that matters because after all, not only would waiting in long lines be part of the inherent ambiance and punishment of hell in any rational thought process, but really, the longer it takes to get in, one would think…the better. I mean, it IS hell and all.

And what about atheists?

But regardless of what tradition of death you subscribe to, no matter what religion you belong to, no matter what your vision of the afterlife……..just imagine the amount of frikkin paperwork involved. The wear and tear on the infrastructure. The lost or misplaced files. The pilfering of office supplies alone must be a huge problem….

He followed the yellow line for what seemed like miles….and found himself looking down at a used piece of pink bubblegum.

He sat down and went to sleep. Fuck it.

Self Publishing Possibilities

Twenty years ago I set out to write the Arthur-can-write-like Louie L ‘Amor western with gunfights, brawls and all that goes with it.

Didn’t turn out that way.

Louie L’Amour’s muse wasn’t splitting time between Louie and me.

As I’ve heard from others, when a writer really gets into his work, his characters seem to step in, take over and at times even change the total nature of the writing.

What was born was entirely within my own life experience and perception.

I wrote and sent this manuscript to a New York literary agent I’d listened on Larry King’s old all-night radio talk show while delivering the USA Today into boxes all over Vancouver.

The agent told me to forget it. There wasn’t a market sufficient for religious literary fiction. So I forgot it and missed my opportunity to step in front of the Left Behind writers ten years before they created their stuff.

This novel is self-published which is the point of the diary. This is how I decided to publish in the end as I was originally turned down by the agent. It was pretty simple, although there were some concerns of pricing. All I had to do was research ‘how much does it cost to self publish a book‘ and I was presently surprised. So here we are now, I did it all on my own. As one or two advertisments out there point out, vanity publishing is now possible on a scale equal to individual resources.

Normal shipping is 3-5 days after order unless there’s a holiday going on. Also – as we did – the account holder/author can buy copies at cost from the printer (that is, minus the markup).

Books are printed on demand and authors don’t have to buy their books in lots of 100 or more in order to facilitate distribution.

My writing here came about because my wife, Lietta, wanted a printed version for our home and I looked into it.

The result is what you see here. Possibilities suggest themselves, shorter tracts, booklets, brochures, collections of essays, how-to manuals, and other stuff.

Yeah, check out my novel which has not been re-written, modernized nor edited from its original 1986 form when I was still trying to figure out the “he said”, “she reponded,” “they shouted” dialogue narrations

– not to mention avoiding too much head thoughts and not enough description via action.

But then, Mailer, Vidal, even Louis L’Amour are not in danger from the likes of me.  


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“Rose Blake and her family in England are trapped in circumstances and events that are destroying their lives.
Jacob Hannah is a violent man called to a preaching ministry by Brigham Young in an effort to save his soul.
Based on an actual historical event, And Should We Die is human nature at it’s best and worst, a struggle to survive against an unforgiving mother nature. And Should We Die is ultimately a love story from out of the history of the American West.”


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The following is the novel’s introduction that was written in 1999-2000:

 

And Should We Die was drafted and written as my first attempt at a novel. The writing was finished over a period of time from October, 1986 to early 1987. As a novel the writing was submitted and returned by two literary agents as not-marketable as written.

I made several attempts at a re-write but each time came very quickly to an inability to change anything with any kind of enthusiastic creativity; a circumstance I attributed to mental burn out with the novel itself.

Now I view it differently. The writing is a novel but more than that a reflection of what has been inside the writer. The final drafts and an assortment of redrafted parts are in my possession. The original first draft, after subsequent drafts were written, was relegated to use by myself and family as scratch paper.

In retrospect, that original writing may very well contain the purity of expression before editing and perhaps a bit more of the essence of what was in my mind. However, the original process of editing was merely a polishing of the rough draft in the first place and a case could be made that such polishing further refined and made accurate the precise messages coming from within.

This is the value of And Should We Die. It is my equivalent of “survivor art”, if you will, where someone in a therapeutic context attempts to portray in pictures what exists and is felt inside. This is very personal writing from within. It expresses feelings, beliefs, attitudes and other emotions that were no longer willing to be bottled up and which, as a result, pushed out into a written expression in 1986.

However, for a long time there was no one to read and comprehend. As the source of the writing, I myself saw it only as an attempt to write marketable historical fiction; an attempt that accomplished nothing more than to reveal to me an aptitude for writing. However, I had only a superficial understanding that what came out on paper was very revealing of personal inner thinking. Although I was very proud of and devoted to the writing, I saw it only as an attempt that had failed.

Although I attempted once or twice to read it to the family, I myself did not sustain that effort. There seemed to be no one else who could or would take the time to read it and the drafts lay in boxes in my home for 12 years. On two occasions in the past five years I’ve attempted to read parts to my wife, Lietta, and each time I was brought to tears by what I read.

I did not understand at those times why such would be the case except for the fact that the writing represented a time when I worked like hell to give birth, if you will, to something restless within me. People use the phrase of “having a novel in here that needs to be written,” and this for me was a blood-sweat-and-tears effort that defined part of a writer’s task.

However, recently, while on vacation, my wife invited me to read the novel to her from the start. I no sooner started to read than found myself again in tears. But this time I saw something quite disturbingly clear. This writing was created for my eyes in particular and it contained images that suddenly sprang into view much like commercial pictures that contain smaller hidden pictures.

The more I read the more frequently I was moved to tears until it became obvious that 12 years ago, I had subconsciously put in words much of what I was unable to say out loud. The act of reading these words aloud to another person somehow served a therapeutic purpose that elicited responses way beyond being involved in reading fiction.

The writing is multi-layered. The characters all speak, obviously, from within my perceptual source. The characters are, as any writer will tell you, extensions of myself more than they are creations modeled on someone else. The characters reflect different points of my own view and, being multi-layered, there are many levels of perception.

I read this novel with very strong emotions and, twelve years after it was written, I acknowledge that it represents the essence of how I see myself in terms of ancestry, culture and background. For me it is an anthem to who I am and the kind of courageous people from whom I am descended.

In transcribing this writing from the paper copy which was done with a typewriter I have made a few corrections of grammar, spelling and syntax for clarity purposes (to the degree I am able to do good proof-reading). I would not add to, delete or change anything in this material, as it comes directly from my inner world and reflects too much to try to change it after the fact.

A.C.R., South Bend Washington, October, 1999

Do You Know Anyone in Iowa? Election Swindle Redux!

It appears there may be some more panky-hanky going on in Iowa.  If you live there, or know folks who live there, please alert them to the following:

My friend Jerry Berkman has been very active in electoral reform for the last 7-8 years.  He played a major role in helping to correct problems in California.

I just received the following note from him:

California Election Reform Alert, Dec. 31, 2007 The Iowa Caucuses happen this Thursday. So far, both the Democratics and Republicans have been unwilling to release the procedures for counting and tabulating the votes, and are unwilling to commit to posting the precinct results and how they arrive at the state wide totals. Since a poor showing in Iowa can knock a candidate out of the race, transparency of procedures should be a requirement. If you know anyone in Iowa, forward the link below to them and ask them to contact the Democratic and/or Republican parties. For details, see the lead article at: http://www.blackboxvoting.org archived at: http://www.bbvforums.org/cgi-b… – Jerry

I know it’s short timing, but see what you can do to let people know.  

The price of democracy is eternal vigilance.

         Thomas Jefferson.  (Is this quote accurate?)

Thanks!

Docudharma Series Spotlight

Greetings and thanks to all who read, write and comment on this blog.  Our short existence in 2007 has been funtastic – witnessing the birth of the blog and forming a community of like-minded souls. I’m sure 2008 will be amazing as well.    I especially want to thank the contributors who have committed to writing regular original series (just like HBO!).   My latest project has been to put together a Series page (now linked under DharmaDocs) where everyone can have easy access to the content and catch up on their favorites.  

The page is reproduced below….  

notlightnessofbeing has introduced us to the power of RSS  (Really Simple Syndication) feeds and using them to syndicate our content widely throughout the blogosphere.  Another useful function of the Feed is to collect the series in chronological sequence – where all the text is available (no comments) and can be sorted by date.   Also, if you subscribe to the RSS Feed your browser will be automatically updated when a new edition is posted.    

Click the Titles to go to the RSS Feed.  

Click the Author to go to their page.

ALL TIMES EASTERN US (GMT -5:00)



















SeriesAuthor/DescriptionTime (GMT -5)
News. Four at Four – Current events and hot topics uniquely presented by Magnifico the founder of Overnight News Digest.  M-F 4 PM
Blog Roundup. NLinStPaul highlights Blog Voices This Week  – focused on lesser known blogs and people of color.   This is a semi-regular series.Sun 11 AM
News. Docudharma Timesmishima starts your day with the morning headlines and the amazing ticker.Daily 7:30 AM
Salon.   nightprowlkitty sets the beat, Friday Night at 8, with lyrical prose and Hepcat style. BYO cocktails.Fri 8 PM
Life. Friday Philosophy: Robyn‘s personal and profound ponderings.Fri 6 PM

SciFi/CyberPulp. Iglesia  by buhdydharma – a cliffhanger serial with a metaphysical twist.  Stay tuned for what happens next…Tue & Sat midnight
in Other news. pico‘s weekly roundup of GLBT newsWed noon
Art & Poetry. Muse in the MorningRobyn celebrates the Muses and encourages everyone to contribute their talent.  M-F 6 AM
Books. Profiles in Literaturepico‘s fascinating lessons about the history, lives, and works of authors.Tue 6 PM
Fantasy.   In the City of Colours RiaD and The TaleMaster weave stories within stories.Sat noon
semi-regular
News/Commentary. ek hornbeck ace reporter for The Stars Hollow Gazette.  Sun, M, W, Th midnight
Trippin Tuesday – All things psychedelic.  To wake up your mind… get On The Bus. Tue 10 PM
(highly irregular)
News. Weekend News Digest with ek hornbeck  – Top Stories in Technicolor.  News from the World, U.S, Business, Politics, Science and more. Sat & Sun 4 PM
Books. What are you reading?plf515’s popular series cross-posted at Daily Kos.  Fri 7 AM
Spontaneous expression.  Writing in the Rawpfiore8 (with occasional guest hosts) lets it all hang out in this creative workshop.  Thu 10 PM
Image TBDOpen Thread. Pony Party hosted by Turing Test and the stable crew – pfiore8, 73rd virgin, Light Emitting Pickle, moneysmith, RiaD, undercovercalico, Robyn and On The Bus.   For fun and amusement… must be this high to ride!  Daily 9 AM, Noon, 6 PM

This is still a work in progress.  Obviously, I need to make the Pony Party graphic.  btw, if anyone wants to change their picture feel free to give me a suggestion/concept or send me your own creation.   There are a few more series by TominMaine and DianeW that I plan to include.   Let me know if I’m missing anything else.  

Series on DocuDharma

Docudharma has a wealth of talented writers – some of whom contribute a regular series on a particular topic – news, art, philosophy, fiction, etc.

Click the Titles to go to the RSS Feed.

Click the Author to go to their page.

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SeriesAuthor/DescriptionTime (Eastern US)
News. Four at Four – Current events and hot topics uniquely presented by Magnifico the founder of Overnight News Digest.  M-F 4 PM
Teaching, Learning. Robyn serves up an educational feast at CafĂ© Discovery.  Pull up a chair.Sun 10 AM
News. Docudharma Timesmishima starts your day with the morning headlines and the amazing ticker.Daily 7:30 AM
Teaching, Law.  Friday Constitutional  – Something The Dog Said walks us through each Article and Section of the Consititution.  Knowing the relevance and intent of this document is essential for every political blogger and citizen of the United States. Friday
Salon.   nightprowlkitty sets the beat, Friday Night at 8, with lyrical prose and Hepcat style. BYO cocktails.Fri 8 PM
Life. Friday Philosophy: Robyn‘s personal and profound ponderings.Fri 6 PM

SciFi/CyberPulp. Iglesia  by buhdydharma – a cliffhanger serial with a metaphysical twist.  Stay tuned for what happens next…Tue & Sat midnight
in Other news. pico‘s weekly roundup of GLBT newsWed noon
on hiatus
Music.  Late Night Karaoke  – mishima cues up the tunes so everyone can sing along.nightly 3 AM
Economy, Business. Manufacturing MondayJohnny Venom digests the weekly business news, bringing you informative and detailed analysis of industry, labor, economics, world trade and more.Monday
Art & Poetry. Muse in the MorningRobyn celebrates the Muses and encourages everyone to contribute their talent.  M-F 6 AM
Open Thread. Pony Party hosted by Turing Test and the stable crew.  For fun and amusement… must be this high to ride!  Daily
Books. Profiles in Literaturepico‘s fascinating lessons about the history, lives, and works of authors.Tue 6 PM
on hiatus
News. Random Japan – Special and unusual news items from Japan.  Brought to you by mishima.Fri midnight
News/Commentary. ek hornbeck ace reporter for The Stars Hollow Gazette.  Sun, M, W, Th midnight
Trippin Tuesday – All things psychedelic.  To wake up your mind… get On The Bus. Tue 10 PM
(highly irregular)
Fiction. Weapon of Young Gods – authors Roy Reed, dhaynes and others. A wild stab at expression born of boredom, nostalgia, inertia, and spasmodic bursts of heretofore-unknown discipline and willpower.   Random
News. Weekend News Digest with ek hornbeck  – Top Stories in Technicolor.  News from the World, U.S, Business, Politics, Science and more. Sat & Sun 4 PM
Books. What are you reading?plf515’s popular series cross-posted at Daily Kos.  discontinued
Spontaneous expression.  Writing in the Rawpfiore8 (with occasional guest hosts) lets it all hang out in this creative workshop.  discontinued

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